after Drowned Women, Stanislaw Ignacy Witkiewicz (Poland) 1921
I mouth a glint of copper
and misjudge that the metallic taste's a fishhook.
Insensible in the numb of ether,
the gulch of anesthesia so cavernous, I vanish
as if a rat has swallowed half my head.
The sun has fallen to the bottom of the sea.
I float languid, in and out.
Absinthe's toxic wormwood greens half my face.
My fingers web, and I let them.
A gauntlet of voices elongates like colors in the rain:
how you imagine the dead would call to you.
Blanket-soft drowning
never expected as buoyant,
so comforting, and yet so cruel:
a swell of whales moaning for each other in the fog.